存档

文章标签 ‘survive’

Get myself out of the corner

2007年7月22日 4 条评论 560 views

    The second batch mark-line came out this morning, with wishes to check, while with disappointing to learn the result. I dropped. none of the 3 schools were available to accept me. I hardly believed it was true. I can't accept the result, really can't.
    At lunch I burst into crying, facing my grandfather and father. I dropped the chopsticks and ran out of the door, locked myself in my room, tearing, to the top of my bent. I have never cried so hard in my life since I grew up to be sensible. The tear covered my face, rolling down to wet the T-shirt. Sadness and disappointing filled up my mind. Why the result is so?
    Recollect the second term of Grade 3, everyday, I got to sleep deep in night till 1 o'clock and got up at 6:30 in the second morning and hurried to classroom to avoid the old woman to talk to me. In spite of that, Any and I got problem, I had to take care of our dangerous love, but she seemed to have no willing to survive. I had to save it only by myself. I felt so tired, I almost couldn't shoulder the pressure any more. I told myself that there would be return if pays out. That was the belief which supported me.
    But now I know I was wrong. I payed out all, but lost all and received none. I was so naive, so naive. Paying out not equals return. Maybe it's my kismet, the punishment of my puerility.
    Any is doomed not to be my girl, she doesn't belong to my own, never or ever. Last night I made a mistake again, even she gave me a chance, we couldn't be happy still, because she herself didn't have the willing at all. Amativeness is based on love, and run by both two guys. One once gives up, the other does none even tries how hard. I'm treating myself all through. She wants simple love, maybe I don't know what that is, but I only know how to love one, care one, protect one, by my heart, try my best to do anything I can, to give her the best, am I wrong?
    Men do not cry easily. I've got to get myself out of the corner. Wipe out all about Any, I shall have my own new life now. She is not the girl loveworthy for me, indeed. From now on, anything about her has no business with me.
    I've got to survive.

分类: Sentiment 标签: